It’s been 224 Days 17 Hours…

Since you left… I’ve dusted off my pencil and this is what my soul wrote for your 1st birthday in Heaven.

For now I’ll wait to be with you

I’ll live this life, bereft anew

Missing your smile and laughing eyes

My love for you, now trapped inside

I told the lie, you know the one,

“I’ll be okay, after you’ve  gone”

I held your hand with love and fear

Your light went out and as I feared

I’m not ok , I’m numb, alone

regretting all we left undone.

Heart shaped rocks, white butterflies.

Provide me hope, your in my life

We both believed, you could send signs

Are you ok, whole and fine?

How can I feel the love of you

When every day, the pain renews

Still fresh and raw, constant wrong

that I still live and you are gone.

I miss you Mom

-Sheryl

7/22/2024